My transformation is still a work in progress. Yes I may be back to my “pre-baby” weight, but I am no where near where I want to be. HOWEVER, I look back at where I started and I am damn proud of what I have accomplished so far. It definitely wasn’t easy, the second baby was a whole new experience compared to the first one. And let’s be real, post-partum depression is legit! I don’t know if it’s just the hormones getting re-adjusted or what, but I suffered badly from this. There were days I would just cry for no reason. I was so down about the way I looked, I didn’t even want to look in the mirror. I gained more weight in my second pregnancy, which most people say is normal so I already expected that and it wasn’t that much difference, less than 10lbs, but it felt like 20. My skin stretched more, the stretch marks grew, new ones formed… my self-esteem was beyond down. It was no where to be found.
I had started to do my own searches for other moms in similar situations, but just didn’t find anything that resonated with me. Everyone talked about how you need to be proud of your scars, they’re not scars they’re beauty marks, or that your stretch marks are your tiger stripes! They were all so confident in their new bodies and happy with their changes. I just didn’t understand, all I could see was the negative. I felt even more selfish when I started to think of the blessing I had laying in front of me, a beautiful healthy baby girl. I know there are some who never get the opportunity that I had, that would kill for my “tiger stripes” to have what I have. I think that was the turning point for me, when I really stopped and thought about how grateful I am, for the blessing I was given. Then I decided I needed to change. Wallowing in my tears was doing me no good, having zero plan was doing me no good, thinking I could just give mediocre effort and get amazing results, was doing me no good.
About that time I saw a post for the #250kchallenge by Bodybuilding.com and I figured why the heck not? I was already putting in some effort, but the holidays set me back, so why not start the new year off with a challenge. I am a competitive person, I like a challenge plus it would help hold me accountable since I would be posting my progress photos for all to see. You didn’t have to post your pics to your social media accounts, but I figured if I was going to go all in I needed to post to my instagram for accountability. So it began, working out 5-6 days/week, mostly crossfit style workouts, and counting macros.
Macro counting was all very new to me, very foreign. When I had prepped for a bikini competition after Hailey was born, I did zone. Macros initially felt like it was going to be a ton of work, counting everything seemed daunting. BUT I found the myfitnesspal app by Under Armour, the free version and it made it a 100x easier. Once you enter your food it saves it for future entry. It has a barcode reader so any food with a barcode can be scanned in and broken down by macros. Honestly a lifesaver, if I didn’t have the app I probably would never had done “macro counting”. Not only did I get the app, but then did tons and tons of research on what “macro counting” is, studied different styles to figure out what would work best for me. That part really is trial and error, I can definitely go into more detail on this, it just needs it’s own post. (i’ll add this to our nutrition page soon!)
It’s now officially been a year! I’ve had my ups and downs emotionally, I think that’s pretty normal as a mom 🙂 My nutrition wasn’t perfect, I had cheat meals, cheat days and cheat weeks lol. I had to constantly remind myself that progress takes time. I didn’t want to “transform” for a quick result, I wanted long-term results. I wanted a lifestyle change. quick diets, weight-loss tricks, losing mass amounts in a short period of time is only setting yourself up for failure. Those fads are not realistic for long-term results. I wanted to find something that worked for me, to find balance in this circus of a life, and do something that I knew I could maintain for a long period of time, hence the lifestyle change. Think, it’s a marathon of a race, not a sprint.
If you want more details on what I did or if you have questions , please feel free to reach out! We want to help! That’s why we’re doing this blog, to help other momma’s!